I have been in hiatus for a while now, trying to draw inspiration from different sources.. Sometimes I have great energy and say to myself.. today is going to be different, it then it turns out to be a 'hot mess'. I'd like to think that I'm more resilient than most but really...
This year has been one of those years.. It started off great, I thought to myself... I'm young, Im loved, my family is wonderful and I would be married at Christmas, then it happened - I lost my dad on my fiance's birthday, so the wedding is off for now. My elder brother also had a health scare. To make matters worse my fiance's siblings had started misbehaving recently and I lost all patience with him over it.
Then there's the 'R' word so we have to be wise with finances in the coming year.
Christmas this year has lost some of its sparkle. My dad absolutely loved Christmas and it was always memorable in my household, I planned to travel home and spend this time with my family but plans changed in the past week. I wasn't up to decorating my place this year until some of my girlfriends came round and helped me to put up my tree.
Even sending cards this year was a bit of an ordeal, I went into the Hallmark store to buy some cards and left in tears 'cause there were so many 'Dad & Mom' cards on display. I had to attend a seminar/workshop and one of the models were an happy elderly couple and that set me off as well.
I don't want to be a baby but I miss my dad, he was the most beautiful man I've known and life won't be the same without him. 2008 did this to me...
I'm thankful I still have my mom she's a strong woman and she misses him too, I can't imagine what she's feeling now. My elder brother sent me a recording of Christmas songs my dad had made for me and I played it all day yesterday, it was a comfort seeing my dad's handwriting.
I'm hoping for a happier 2009.. To start things off in January, 2 of my siblings are through with university and I'm looking forward to attending their graduation ceremony. And marriage.. who knows?
Merry Christmas to all of you, who have looked in on my blog and left your comments. Stay inspired. What are your resolutions for the coming year?
This year has been one of those years.. It started off great, I thought to myself... I'm young, Im loved, my family is wonderful and I would be married at Christmas, then it happened - I lost my dad on my fiance's birthday, so the wedding is off for now. My elder brother also had a health scare. To make matters worse my fiance's siblings had started misbehaving recently and I lost all patience with him over it.
Then there's the 'R' word so we have to be wise with finances in the coming year.
Christmas this year has lost some of its sparkle. My dad absolutely loved Christmas and it was always memorable in my household, I planned to travel home and spend this time with my family but plans changed in the past week. I wasn't up to decorating my place this year until some of my girlfriends came round and helped me to put up my tree.
Even sending cards this year was a bit of an ordeal, I went into the Hallmark store to buy some cards and left in tears 'cause there were so many 'Dad & Mom' cards on display. I had to attend a seminar/workshop and one of the models were an happy elderly couple and that set me off as well.
I don't want to be a baby but I miss my dad, he was the most beautiful man I've known and life won't be the same without him. 2008 did this to me...
I'm thankful I still have my mom she's a strong woman and she misses him too, I can't imagine what she's feeling now. My elder brother sent me a recording of Christmas songs my dad had made for me and I played it all day yesterday, it was a comfort seeing my dad's handwriting.
I'm hoping for a happier 2009.. To start things off in January, 2 of my siblings are through with university and I'm looking forward to attending their graduation ceremony. And marriage.. who knows?
Merry Christmas to all of you, who have looked in on my blog and left your comments. Stay inspired. What are your resolutions for the coming year?
6 comments:
May your dad's soul rest in peace...life happens...I'm glad you have memories that are yours to hold on to forever...you're stronger than you think...may the new year bring you loads of happiness and comfort...Merry xmas
Oh, sweetie I'm so sorry about your dad. Life throws us so many challenges. I wish I could change so many things in my life, but .....
Well, I'm just sorry. Take heart, my love.
I'm sorry sweetie. Big hug! I hope things take a turn for the better next year. Just try to enjoy the company of your family this Christmas.
Just read your piece and shared it with a friend... very moving. I hope and pray that 2009 would give you double for your trouble.
awww darling. I am so very sorry. I cannot imagine how you feel but I am sending you loads of love. My reolution this year is to learn how to hold my tongue. hope it works. Please do have a lovely christmas dearest.
No Limit: Thanks for thoughts and prayers and I hope you had a splendid Christmas, I'm looking forward to the New Year.. I refuse to be beaten!
Vera Ezimora: Thanks lovie, I wouldn't change you for the world, going by the way you write I say you're creative/witty/*I know your head is swelling* but... you are in the words of Tina Turner... Simply the Best.. I hope you get the Range Rover and the perfect guy too!
Baraal: Thanks for the Hug.. I needed that! I'm sure 2009 is gonna be a great year, Unfortunately I won't be seeing the family this christmas... But I intend to enjoy it all the same. Happy New Year!
Chinedu: Thanks Chinedu, but so we're clear - Double Blessings right? (I kid) Thanks for the prayers.. I have a great feeling about 2009. I pray too that God's purpose for our lives be revealed in 2009.
Temite: Thanks, I feel the love. About holding that tongue, I hope it works out for you. Hope you had a fun Christmas.. Hope to read interesting things in the coming year...
Lovely Christmas to you and Have a blast in 2009!
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